#PEOPLE ARE THE NICEST I TELL YOU

[intheorangebedroom]

I’m obsessed with your Frankie and Lee. Thanking you endlessly for sharing them with us. 🩷 TYBTM is everything… immersive, intense, lyrical, HOT. I have been poking around your page, couldn’t agree more with your sweet anons. You are truly a poet through and through. The idea you would ever doubt your style… unacceptable! It is a struggle to have a distinct writing style for sure and to articulate it, but yours is unmistakable. I often find myself taken aback by how great some of the writing in this fandom is, it is kind of absurd, but coming across your work I feel like I am back in school close reading poetry but in the best way AND so much better because it’s also hot and heavy (in all the ways) lmao. Will be re-reading TYBTM soon because it’s that type of writing, you have to revisit and re-immerse yourself and rediscover. Also, the implication in the latest chapter that Lee might not want to leave one man to immediately be with another (might have misread that) fucked me up so much. I loved the storytelling choice but I was screaming internally. NO, LEE… FUCK YOUR FEMINISM AND KEEP FUCKING FRANKIE 😂 I want to start PTYM asap too. I already know I will be as obsessed. I’m scared it might destroy me based on the fact it has estrangement woven into it but can’t turn away from the abyss unfortunately. Excuse me in advance if I return to harass you about how you’re one of my favorite writers. P.S. Do you do any non-fandom writing for yourself? Curious because you’re really that good!

Hello there, lovely 🧡

Your ask has taken me on a rollercoaster of emotions I never want to get off of 🧡 First thing first, I'm sorry for hogging it to myself for so long. I do that. A lot. You're entirely too kind to me and like my readers, I'm very shy when it comes to expressing big feelings. And you've given me all the big feelings. Ily, thank you so fucking much 🧡 Thank you for reading my words, for appreciating them, for being so invested in my story, and for taking the time to tell me about it 🧡 Just like you, I'm often blown away by the talents in this and other fandoms, but also by people's kindness and generosity in their interactions with others 🧡

I do actively try to be poetic in my writing, and feel alternately proud and awfully self-conscious about it. It's always nice to receive some validation about a choice, I'm not too shy to admit it! So thank you again. And what you said about having a distinctive style being a struggle struck me, because I had never considered it that way, but it can be, in many aspects (I don't want to bore you with my writing introspection, here).

And then you said NO, LEE… FUCK YOUR FEMINISM AND KEEP FUCKING FRANKIE girl please!!!!! This should be my eulogy!!!! I'll be grateful to you till the end of times for this sentence! Believe it or not, I re-wrote this line of dialogue a dozen times, and I could never find the right words, because I was precisely thinking LEE YOU NEED TO KEEP FUCKING FRANKIE PLEASE GIRL PLEASE 😂 I can't say too much about this now because I don't want to spoil the next chapter, but I needed her to have this growth. The poor girl has never been allowed to be herself, she's finally getting a glimpse of whom she might be, I owed it to her to at least acknowledge it wouldn't be wise to slide from one relationship into another... But 🤫

To answer your last question (thank you. Are you kidding me??? THANK YOU 🧡), no I don't at the moment. I tried, recently, and ended up writing another variation of the Pilot™️, but I'll share more on this endeavour very soon. Before I went on a stupid self-imposed 20 year writing hiatus, I used to write non-fandom horror stories! I write a little for work, but I'm an archivist so it's mostly a nerdy snooze fest....

I hope I didn't take up too much of your time with this lengthy answer. I'm sorry to be repeating myself so much, but thank you so much for your ask 🧡 If you read it, I sincerely hope you liked PTMY.

Have a safe & spooky Halloween if you celebrate 🦇

[imaswellkid]

If you receive this, you make somebody happy! Go on anon and send this to 10 of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. If you get one back, even better. 🩵💜🩷🖤🩶🤍

Alright, Nonnie, a hug for you too, I have enough hugs for every one, THANK YOU SO MUCH, you made my day 🧡🫂🧡🫂🧡🫂🧡

[intheorangebedroom]

Oh my heart, my love, my dream 🧡

Just look at him 🫠 How could you not want to lock yourself up in a room, forget about time and get down to all sorts of filthy things with him...? I love him way too much. And I'm completely fine about it.

Nicole, what a treat 💝 This feels like an early birthday present. Thank you again and again ❤️‍🔥✨

Pedro as Ricky Hauk on Touched by an Angel, 6x22 Stealing Hope

(For @imaswellkid)

[sepiamestus]

Ithink if anyone tells you your scars are triggering you should be allowed to explode them with your mind

[bluesgras]

RAHHH THERES 1000 OF YOU WOOOO

i don’t even know what to say but thank you all so so so so so so much. that’s like at least 10 of you. that’s a lot man

ANYWAY DTIYS RULES OR WHATEVER

#bluesgras1k so i can see it, you can tag me if you’d like to as well!

uhh it can be anything vaguely similar or themed around the photo and SD leo? yeah i think that’s it. no deadline, though i guess if you want one, the end of november. other then that go wild tumblr

and thank you

[leviismybby]

Did Isayama ever state that Levi stopped eating after Erwin's death and that the cloak Levi wears in season 4 is Erwins?

[klutzytomb]

I never thought I'd say this, but there's no way I'm one of the only ones here that isn't chronically online. Right? Right??

[shiraishi--kanade]

I want that "which unit is fandom favourite" vbs vote to remain on 0% until people actually start caring about the girls and An Shiraishi in particular

[chaoticbuggybitchboy]

Forgot that being nice to people really makes them like you

[autisticlee]

is it strange to genuinely not know what people think of you or how they feel about you? most people seem to just know if someone dislikes them so they can move on, or they just know when someone enjoys their company and is their friends. I have no way of knowing without people explicitly telling me, and people are horrible at doing that.

I don't know what my first impression gives. I don't know what vibes I have or what type of energy I have. I can't tell if someone hates me, doesn't care about me, or genuinely likes me. I can't tell what people's opinions on me are, if they think i'm nice, funny, rude, boring. I don't know if i'm bothering or annoying someone. I don't know if i'm upsetting someone or making them uncomfortable. I don't know if they are comfortable around me. I don't know if they enjoy my presence. I don't know if they are being fake nice and fake friends. I can't tell when someone loses interest in me. I cant tell if someone is trying to be a friend or is just being polite. I don't know if i'm easy to get along with, or difficult to be around. I don't know if my presence fills someome with joy or annoyance. to make it worse, each person thinks and feels different things. so i'll never figure out all of them.

if I try to think about what my presence and existence means to other people, i'm met with a massive blank hole. there's nothing there. I could never answer the questions "my friends/family would descove me as ___" because I genuinely don't know. I can only say what I think of me. unless someone explicitly told me with clear words, i'll never know. i'll usually know how I feel about another person at some point, and I try to tell them if I have the chance. but it's never reciprocated. they never tell me. so my presence in other people's lives is always a blank enigma I can't figure out.

any time i've tried talking about this, I just get a response like "stop worrying and caring about what other people think about you/just be yourself that's all that matters"

that's not the advice you think it is. that's more of what you'd say to someone who beats themselves up because they are worried about people disliking them in general and it fills them with anxiety to be disliked. they usually have low self esteem and think their worth lies in other people liking them. that's not the case here. hate me if you want, I don't care. i'd just rather know upfront before investing my time and energy in you.

this type of "caring what others think" is more about human connection, rather than acceptance....I wonder...is one reason I struggle to connect with people because I can't feel the presence of their feelings towards me? all I know is they are aware of my existing. thats it. try being in a group chat and not knowing if any of them actually like you or secretly hate you, not knowing if they are your friends or just being nice, and not knowing anything about how they feel about you, but you enjoy them very much. I try to share inner feelings with them, but theirs don't reach me. so I wonder, do mine even reach them? somewhere between us, the connection fails to reach. perhaps this is one of the problems i'm having with connecting to others.

if you don't know what people think or feel towards you, how can you connect with them? either you make assumptions, like "I think they hate me" and you could be wrong and push away someone that thinks you're friends, or think "i'm sure they enjoyed talking with me" and they later tell you they were just being nice but never wanted to talk to you becuass you're annoying. but assumptions are dangerous because those reasons, so the only other choice is to assign a blank slate to them and wait for them give you words to write on it. but if they don't use their words, they stay blank. you will never know if you are making a connection or it's staying superficial.

it's selfish to only go off your own feelings towards someone. you could really like someone, want to be friends, want to hang out and chat, but if they don't feel the same way, you just cause them problems and inconvenience. you bother them and ruin their time. i've noticed people often won't be direct about that and get even more upset because I missed it. I thought we shared a vibe or similar energy. but I might have mixed up my feelings with their vibes. if I like someone and enjoy them, not knowing how they feel about me can lead to me wasting my time and energy and also annoying that person unknowingly. it's bad for everyone.

if you can't assume the worse or even the best, you have to assume they feel neutral towards you until told otherwise. the problem is, most people go off of subtle hints, but if you can't see those, you get left out. while neither good nor bad, neutral feelings are still that of strangers. if you can't read people's thoughts and feelings on you, but it's rude to ask or people don't tell you the truth, you end up with many neutral people in your life. many strangers.

is this normal? do other people have an idea of what someone feels about them? or do you all "not care" what they think and go off of how you feel about them instead? is everyone making guesses, or do most people actually know without asking? how do you bond and feel connected if you aren't sure if someone enjoys your presence or if they actually loath it? I truly don't know....all I know is, not knowing makes me feel very disconnected from everyone.

I haven't gotten anyone else to talk about this or seen anyone else talk about it. so there's a good chance it's just a me thing. this type of topic usually gets reduced to "stop caring what people think" and goes nowhere beyond that. but!!! I think it's actually important to be able to know what people think or feel about you!!! at least to an extent. not obsessively caring to the point it becomes a mental disorder like social anxiety. but just enough to at least know if you are actually making a connection with them. just enough to know if you are able to reach them....

[intheorangebedroom]

Hey @polyglot-noodle (cutest handle ever btw)

I'm a bloody idiot and idk what happened to your ask, I think I pressed "post" instead of answering you, but now I can't even find it anymore? Thank goodness I screen caped it (BECAUSE IT'S THE BEST EVER) My day is off to a good start!! I am so, so, SO embarrassed, but then again, it illustrates perfectly what happens in my brain when people are nice to me.

And girl, are you nice to me. Oh la la mais merci, je ne sais pas quoi répondre 😱🧡🧡🧡 And the way I gasped when I read that sentence in French! Merciiiiiiiiiiii!!! Please do NOT shut up!! In general and with me in particular!

This is going to be one unhinged reply, apologies! but that's such a wonderful ask, I can't believe you're being so nice to me.

First, thank you 🧡 I am beyond happy that you're enjoying this story, because making people happy makes me happy (I'm so deep 😅). Then, please don't apologise for not dropping in earlier, I am so thankful you did drop at all! I hope uni work is better now, but I've been there, so I know it probably isn't... What are you studying? You speak so many languages, WOW, I'm awed by you and your brain!!

Oh yes, the references to art... I am so happy to get some feedback on that, I'm always concerned that people might find it boring and useless, but it's how my mind and imagination have been shaped and continue to grow, so I can't imagine shaping up a story, let alone characters, without it. Frankie and Reader especially, they're such idealistic dreamers... And so is Will, and I can't begin to tell you how much I appreciate your love for him! I adore him, he's such a big part of this story, and if I was a bit more confident, there would be so much more about him. Next chapter should do him justice, I hope. But thank you for letting me know I am on the right path when describing his and R's dynamic. They became very close very fast, and it's one of the reasons she's stuck in that mess and can't see a way out of it. She doesn't want to lose him too 🥺

My take on Frankie probably stems from my obsession with him and this movie, that I have watched not respectfully way too many times with my overanalysing brain. I'm glad you like him 🧡 Again, I'm always afraid my very defined and very personal take on a fandom favourite might be a put-off.

And AHHHHHHH Before Sunrise!!!!!!! I can't believe you mentioned Before Sunrise!!!! This movie has had such a big impact on my life and the decisions I took!!! And yes, it's definitely an inspiration for PTMY, I am squealing in excitement that my very humble story reminded you of it!!! I don't think I'm ever going to be confident in my SMUT writing abilities, but I do spend literal HOURS choosing the right word, so THANK YOU for noticing!!!

And finally (I'm the one person whose answers are longer than the actual asks, sorryyyyy) YES Reader's a badass, she survived some pretty terrible things (again, down to my lack of confidence to not develop that more in the story) and has been fighting her entire life so that her trauma wouldn't define her, while simultaneously thinking that she's failing, which of course isn't true, and guess who sees that clearly...? Why our boy Frankie, of course!

Ok I have to shut up, for your sake, but I can't thank you enough for your kindness, your time, your words; sincèrement, je me sens idiote de le répéter encore mais merci du fond du coeur 🧡

I love you and I am giving you the biggest bone-crushing hug ever!

You've have made my entire year 🧡

[intheorangebedroom]

Leaving this here too because it's his kingdom 😌

I love you, Cee ♥

For you my love 😘

Cee!!!!!!!

Thank you 🥺 This is, hands down, the sweetest Valentines I've ever received 💝 And I am looking at these broad shoulders, plush lips and altogether pretty, pretty face with all the disrespect you know I'm capable of.

[adore-gregor]

Lol I keep on doing this, saying I'd come back to tumblr to only disappear again 😂😭

[reedeemable]

Every time I come across Gavin hate, old or new, I always think of that meme in Trolls:

Someone: Why do you hate Gavin?

Gavin haters: BECAUSE GAVIN KILLED MY GRANDMA, OKAY?

[hotdogmchiggin]

Motherfuckers stole my hearts cant have shit in hyrule

Glad we all seem to be united in the shared experience of being pantsed by these guys with nothing but four hearts and three sticks we found on the ground

[kaserolly]

🩵💙💜 Lewis Hamilton X Stay Close by Bawo 💜💙🩵

Keep it a hundred and not one less

Woke up in a mess, that don't mean that the love can rest

Bro got dreams, let's flee this nest

All for the team, it's really a quest

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICO @captainson 🩵